Today...

Today I spent almost £100 on having a full head of highlights on my hair, I do feel like I look more like the old me...
I then spent/wasted whatever you wish to call it, £40 on seeing a physic called Susan, as soon as I sat down she said 'Ahh Sophie you are so sad, you're recently single aren't you' me nod and swallow lump.
The reading was not what I'd hoped for, Mr Devine apparently isn't right for me and I'm going to be alone for a long time. 'You don't like being lonely do you Sophie? Well you need to get used to it as it's going to be a while' GRRRRRREAT!!! Heard a lot of crap that I am a happy person and worry too much about everyone else and my mum is worried about me oh and I have a major shoe fetish (didn't need a physic to tell me that!). I walked away absolutely sobbing and feeling rather shit about my 'sitch.
What a pointless waste of time, I know this crap isn't true but I needed to hear something positive.

Me and my friend got a Chinese takeaway and my little money Ruby (Black lab, more about them in other posts) ate an entire 1/4 Duck (bone included), 2 plates of chinese and god knows what else. She ate all of this off of the dining room table whilst we popped upstairs for 2 minutes to look at some of my shoes.
To say I am dreading what I wake up to in the morning would be a bit of an understatement!! Damn dog... I'd like my mum & dad to come home from holiday now.

My old Nan is poorly too. Not been well for ages now and was rushed to Addenbrooks last night.. We're all so worried about her but she will not have it that she is getting very old (88) and she can't look after herself.
I hope that she is better in time for cousin Flicks wedding to Ben next Saturday.

@TheNoteBook quotes today:
- What hurts even more then losing someone you love, is knowing that they're not even fighting to keep you
- People break-up all the time, mainly for the wrong reasons. They let the smallest things tear apart something beautiful
- Sometimes 2 people have to fall apart just to realize how much they need to fall back together again.
- If you're important to someone, they will always find a way to make time for you. No excuses, no lies and no broken promises

I'm struggling to 'think positive' at the moment, I just wish for my gorgeous boy to love me the way he used to...

Over and out
Tinkerbell x